Ramblings of an insomniac or pure genuis?

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So, it's 1:20 am on saturday July 5 and Im too awake to go to sleep, but too tired to go down stairs and do anything.

I move on monday, the 7th. Im really excited, mainly because I can still go to my high school. First time that's ever happened. My sister's birthday is tomorrow. News wise, I think that's it.

My lexi's birthday was last week and we went to the Taste of Chicago with her sisters and their boyfriend/friend. Honestly, I was glad to go. I havnt left my house once except for that day this summer( at least that I can remember). It was a lot of fun and Im glad I went. Then that sunday she had the party. Twas...depressing for me. I wasnt feeling well and was out of my comfort zone so I left early, knowing that if I stayed I would have started crying and ruining everything for her. As I started walking home I started feeling bad and now I think she may be mad at me.

But when I went home that day I looked up a bunch of shit, as I always so, and started looking at info on shyness and started feeling so crappy about everything. Being shy sucks ass and the only people who understand that are people who are shy to atleast the extent that I am, because it is incredibly debilitating.

What sucks more is I just realised I used a wrong flower for a spell and now it might not work.

hell :/