Its been long...

I've graduated high school and moved to a new state since last posting. And I have since decided to enlist in the United States Navy because:
1) I dont know what I want to do for college and do not want to waste money being 'undecided'
2) I want the adventure of going on the high seas
3) I do not want to spend my life paycheck to paycheck because I work at a dead-end job with no future
4) I want to be proud of myself for something.
Some of my family is happy, some not so much. I love my family to death but this is my decision, not theirs, its my life and I will do with it what I will, whether they are behind me or not.
They are, however, making me wait until Im 18 to go forward with anything, which is a drag considering I plan things out carefully and the later I go in the later I get out. So this friday, the 20th, I plan on calling a recruiter.
Im excited but nervous and at the same time terrified that I wont make it in due to stupidity of being young, but the stars say to be patient and things will fall into place.

trouble in paradise

Time has passed, school year over, friends moved on, and spring is here. What more could a girl ask for? I've been in a relatively great mood for weeks now and all is good, except recently I've been notified by my ten-year-old brother that our nearly two-year-old Xbox 360 has been consumed by the ever dreaded Red Ring of Death. Now, at first I was understandably confused because I had no idea what it initially meant, so I looked it up on the internet and found out that the number of notches( I had three) depicted what exactly was wrong with the machine. 1 notch was something very minor, 2 notches meant a wire wasnt hooked all the way or something along those lines, but 3 and 4 notches meant something was seriously wrong with the 360: as in 3 was a soon-to-come mechanical meltdown and 4 being your $200 360 was dead and there was really nothing you could do about it.
Well, after a bit of research I looked up the problem and how to fix it and it was either spend a bit of money to have Microsoft themselves fix it, which I dont see why they couldnt have just made sure the problem was solved before they shipped out the cargo but whatever, I could buy a new 360, which wasnt going to happen or I could fix the problem myself, which included voiding the warranty, taking apart the entire system and messing around with the motherboard and soldering the disconnected wires myself.
I've taken apart my ps2 and fixed a serious problem it had so I know my way around a game system, but my ps2 was at least five years old when I fixed it and the 360 wasnt nearly as old or as cheap as the sony machinery and I was a little apprehensive about 'having my way' with the white system. After about an hour and a half of exploration and tweaking I couldnt for the life of me find a soldering iron in my house and had to give up and put the xbox back together. Before I went to bed I made sure it would turn on again(success on that but still red ring of death) and went to sleep.
But, Nicole, did you fix the problem?
Yes I did. How?
A towel.
Yes, you read right, a towel. After a bit more research on the 'trusty' Internet, I found out that I could fix my $200 game system with a $3 towel from target. Let me explain...apparently if I wrapped my 360 in a towel and let it run for about 20 minutes the system would overheat and the disconnected wires would 'melt' themselves together. After I followed the above instructions I turned off and on my system once...victory! The formally red ring turned a cheerful green and I was once again able to spend hours on a game that would rot my brain.
All is well in the gaming world once again thanks to a towel and a few distraught fellow gamers who with a bit of curiosity figured out the simplest solution to a problem.
The oh-so-helpful link

sunday bloody sunday

boredboredbored.

Why?

I'll tell you why.

Its sunday. A hot, lonely, sweaty sunday.

On the plus side, its my mom's birthday. My sister and I got her a logic puzzle book when I saw Dark Knight for the second time, and we made her a card; along with my brother. My dad brought home an ice cream cake, which we'll all eat when they get home from the city.

And I felt like blogging.

But Im bored.

boredboredbored.

I saw The Dark Knight the other day.

LOVED IT

Heath Ledger was amazing. Ive seen him in other movies before but he was so disturbing in Dark Knight.

As great as the movies was there always has to be a flaw in the plan right? Right.

Let me lay down the setting: My house around 2ish maybe. Ashley call Lexlex and asked her if we wanted to see The Dark Knight, I asked if I could bring my sister and said yes. Plan set.

However we planned on a silly boy,(lets just call him 'Unsure' for now, shall we?), Unsure, to give us a ride to the movies because he is the only one of us, with us, with his licence.

Lets skip ahead a few hours to lexlex's house.

Unsure tells us he wont give us a ride but lex's grandma can, which means my sister, who wanted to see this movie since they announced its premiere, couldnt go with us. I had been informed later that after I had told her she started crying, making me feel like shit.

Well lexlex and I went with Ashley and a few other people. Fabulous except for 4 girls in front of us giggling and being the shit headed whores they'll be in 10 years. At least until I said 'shh'. Lol little thing to say except they didnt say anything else the rest of the movie. yay for raising self esteem!

Next day I see it again with my sister and had little kids behind us kicking our seat /:

Well Im tired so bonne nuit.

Honestly Im just bored.

3 weeks ago I moved into my new house.

huzzah.

I love it. Even the little dent mark in the kitchen and the cracked tile in the bathroom.

I forgot how much I loved apartment life. It always was comforting to me. There's a pond/lake thing right outside our patio that I can fish in.

I wanted to show my friends but after I unpacked my clothes I droped my phone in the box and moved it into the living room. I couldnt find it forevvvver. When I did actually get it back I had about 20 missed calls and only 1 new voicemail.

Honestly I think what annoys me the most is that of all the people who called me only one person had the decentsy to verbally let me know they called. If I have more than one missed call, my phone wont let me know who called except for the last person. So I only knew that my lexlex <3 called(besides her voicemail).

Then I ran past my friend Josh on my way home from the library and he tells me he called me on one of those 20 missed calls. bah.

I think I may actually be not 'likeing' this summer.

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lol see them?

Ramblings of an insomniac or pure genuis?

blah.

So, it's 1:20 am on saturday July 5 and Im too awake to go to sleep, but too tired to go down stairs and do anything.

I move on monday, the 7th. Im really excited, mainly because I can still go to my high school. First time that's ever happened. My sister's birthday is tomorrow. News wise, I think that's it.

My lexi's birthday was last week and we went to the Taste of Chicago with her sisters and their boyfriend/friend. Honestly, I was glad to go. I havnt left my house once except for that day this summer( at least that I can remember). It was a lot of fun and Im glad I went. Then that sunday she had the party. Twas...depressing for me. I wasnt feeling well and was out of my comfort zone so I left early, knowing that if I stayed I would have started crying and ruining everything for her. As I started walking home I started feeling bad and now I think she may be mad at me.

But when I went home that day I looked up a bunch of shit, as I always so, and started looking at info on shyness and started feeling so crappy about everything. Being shy sucks ass and the only people who understand that are people who are shy to atleast the extent that I am, because it is incredibly debilitating.

What sucks more is I just realised I used a wrong flower for a spell and now it might not work.

hell :/

heaven forbid i speak the truth

For a while now I've been thinking about some things. Mostly just personal things, but also things that involve my future.

Im graduating high school in less then 2 years and that scares me.

My family cant afford to help me pay for college, mind I may not even go to college if I stick to what I want to be, I cant get a job because Im too young and people wont hire me.

Im also worried about my passion, traveling. I want to travel everywhere, London, Paris, Dublin, Mumbai, Tokyo, Hong Kong. I get so excited about the very thought of meeting people from every country.

But again sneaks up the issue of money. Im getting desperate.

Really desperate.

It gets so scary that I cant even talk to people about it. I just sit and think and hope.